horrid awakening

Yesterday
a realization horrid awakening
face to face with my carelessness shirking fickleness
i am the death of me
passing time away with triviality I know that but it is so hard to get up and take action
but everything has got to change NOW
dedication
is what you can trade your life for
is what you do with spontaneous passion
is what i lack
everyday with deep respect and dedication
and i innately know i can achieve the best
"you've got all the tools and now it's up to you" a real teacher once said